Keep Holding On / Inspiration Lost Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Sometimes I wish I wanna shoot myself everyday....Sometimes I felt like breaking down.... I don`t know if I fell to the floor, couldn`t take it anymore...will anybody help me? S_A_D_N_E_S_S___A_N_D___A_B_S_U_R_D Firstly... My inspiration girl is gone...Nothing to do wif my ex... The inspiration girl do give me the inspiration to keep study and come to school....But now, wen she is gone. I don`t hav the motivation to go on study...To tell the truth.. I felt like nt going to school anymore cause I felt depress despite the fact people saw me laughing. I am depress wif a lot of think. Anyway I will not elaborate much.. P_A_I_N___A_N_D___A_N_G_U_I_S_H Secondly...I hav been keep holding on...To tell the truth,it is very pain but I am enduring it...I felt my life is a bad fate, especially wif friends. I dunno whether there is something wrong wif me or them. For the past few years, I felt like I am a dog to my friends...From secondary... I felt like I am juz a minorities...To follow my friend says...N to tink tat they will listen to wat I am going to say..Its a Fat Hope... Secondary till nw my life is like a dog. Sometimes, I wanted to shout it out, but wat can I do...Like wat people would say...True Friends Are Like A Diamond. Wat it mean is tat true friends tat will stick wif u even wen u are in a difficult situation is very rare to find. Sometimes people said u re my best friend, but do they really mean it or do they understand wat it mean. Maybe some will say tat I am juz talking rubbish or I am juz trying to create story...Well I don`t mind if people say tat I am creating stories. Well nt only me felt tis way. Some of my friend felt it. In secondary, I hav noticed tat years after years without fail, I will be left astray. Till nw in ITE, I felt like tat. Some say tat my jokes areSUPER LAME. I know tat it is lame. Sometimes other people make lame jokes n you all laugh saying it is funny... I knw different people had different ways of accepting thing. But the fact I am juz who I am. Diz is juz part of it.... I don`t tink i want to elaborate more...
ShadowZ signing out
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