2017 have been a rough life for me. Ouh yah i have change my gf. I have been with this current gf for about 5 years. My life is kind of shaky. Sometimes i ask myself, how long can i live in this world?  I did sins, i broke trust and to earn it back all those, it is hard and painful. I am feeling like an ex convict who want to change but doubts were given. Like no fucks were given to me. On the 10 may 2017, i did cheat with another girl who is way older then me. I am 28 and she is 39. 11 years different between us. I did fall for her. To me she was caring and etc. At times she is a little demanding. I dont know if i should post my life or not.