My LIFE

Its been some tyme

2009-03-07T02:09:00.002+08:00

Well...Its been some time I have not type anything in this blog... As you all knw... when I blog, most of post is kinda emo. Sometimes I also got no idea why i am so emo. Firstly..I have quit Starbuck... Well...kinda tiring for me cause of the travel. Secondly, join Sakura International Buffet..( well sooner or later going to quit soon due to management ) Thirdly, I have finish my FYP which make me stress alot n make me gain alot if weight. Lastly, Got a new GF... Wanna knw more...visit my facebook...haha

Well tat is the major things tat happen in my life. Well lets start off wif January.

January:

Having a Grease Musical in my school. Well I am nt the actor of backup actors... I am the crew..
If I didn`t quit the Grease Musical, I would have been the actor. So its ok. Well life have to move on... So being a crew is nt as bad as I thought. I met my GF there...hehe... Well.. alot of things happen...Some of the props missing, den some people almost faint, some had leg pain....alot of stuff happen...well tat is behind the scene of Grease the Musical.

I became the DJ for the Special Event at Dover ITE Clubhouse. Well it was my first tyme I became the DJ for a event. Even though I use the machine b4...but still nervous if i were to play the wrong tune or anthing... Well, lucky I manage to pull it off.

Been bz working on my FYP... Sometymes sleep late for tat...Well I gain weight cause wen I am doing my FYP, my stomach tend to get hungry...so I will eat late supper. Tat cause me to gain weight... Well need to work out more....Hopefully

February:

Well I can`t remember much on February....Maybe nothing special happen or wat....Seriously can`t tink of any except for our anniversary which we did nt go out... I work n she wen out wif her family....FULLSTOP DON`T WANT TO ELEBORATE MOREEE....

March:

Well recently.. I have been getting too fierce, aggitated easily n more emo. I dunno y I became like tat..Well been having alot of probs... My FYP project tat I have been doing all tis month juz disappear juz like tat...wat I mean is the data corrupt. To top up my stress, it happen right b4 the date of the submission... Well...I redo my FYP like almost going to 2 days..Well I didn`t sleep doing tat project, den the nxt day after school, I have to work. Well the most Idiotic thing is tat, I n my friend is the onli person looking after the second level... 2 person n the place is full house. I have to do three things, I have to be buffetline, Lift 2 and runner. I was like sweating like hell eventhought dere re air conditioner... My friend have to clear all the plates tat the customer dun`t want.... Well my manager help once a while onli...Seriously tiring... The Next day, I have to go Science Centre for a event held by Sakura... N tis is more crazy...more bigger crowd..lucky there re alot of staff working...wellIts a mixture of North, South, East, West Sakura... Well make a lot of friends. The next day have to send stuff here n dere... den end up going hm at 1 plus going to 2..Den the worst thing, the nxt day I have to go to school...wat a crazy month..

Abt my past nick in msn:
Well, tat tyme we have a talk. So we went in like normal...Well I was angry wif tis chinese guy because he juz sat at the sit where i put my bag on the table(For those didn`t nt understand.. wat I mean is tat i put my bag at the table which is attach wif the chair, den tis chinese guy juz pop out of no where n juz sit n said the sit is book... I was like angry cause he didn`t even said excuse me or anything...)Hey where is ur respect for others...Well, My classmate was like saying rileks to me...asking me to chill n so on... well, as a reader..how do u feel if u re in my shoe... Confirm u will do the same thing as....stare at the guy n make him feel paisey... n will say out loud, no respect for others.. Well... I dunno, anything can happen wen ur angry.
Well we escape frm the talk after we felt bored listening to the talk. We all went to cafe 1 to eat.. Before proceed to cafe 1, we met Ratna. While I on the way to the sitting place, I met Hafiz Hussain.... After eating n all..I went home wif Ratna. Well we took bus 24 to Tanah Merah.. Well Ratna told me tat someone said something like, NANTI ANAK RAJA TK ADA TEMPAT DUDUK..Something like tat, well I can`t really remember wat she say cause its been few weeks already. Well wats wif tat...!!!!! HEll, I even notice tat after they eat, they went to sit at the other table....N WTF is tat... Now who is showing attitude, call tat friends..FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!!! To tell the truth, I am so emo cause I really felt tat I am juz an extra to you all... Juz a tool for all wen u need help....Well I don`t mind if they didn`t invite me went they went out... Nw the ans is really clear.... I AM JUZ A EXTRA TO MY CLASSMATES...Tats y I currently tag along more to my Chinese friends rather den malay friends...Seriously I can say tis, I am ashamed of my own race sometimes..nt tat I am trying to be racist or wat. Not only me who said it, some of my friends also said it... Well some may nt like my post....well, i can juz say tis....FUCK OFF IF U DON`T LIKE..TIS IS MY POST, I CAN SAY WATEVER I LIKE... MY MOUTH MY PROB.. I AM LETTING OUT WAT I AM FEELING TIS PAST FEW YEAR OF MY LIFE IN ITE SIMEI... SO FOR THOSE WHO TERASA...I AM SORRY CAUSE I CAN`T DO ANYTHING.
Well nw u knw y I change alot... tats the prob... It feels kinda better wen I let it all out... I FELT LEFT OUT EVERYTYME WEN WE RE ALL TOGETHER....I even felt like quiting school tat tyme, somemore due to the exam which tat I didn`t attend... Well as for some of them... Hey, I AM NT UR DOG OR MAID TO LISTEN TO WAT U ALL WANT... I HAVE MY OWN FEELINGS TOO, I HAVE MY OWN DESIRE TOO...WELL WEN I GO ALONE, U ALL SAID I AM EMO... HEY I AM NT BEING EMO, I HAVE BRAINS TO THINK. WELL U ALL SAID U WILL HEAR TO OPINIONS, BUT WELL ,DO U??? EXAMPLE : OTHERS WANT TO EAT AT CAFE 2, BUT YET WE HAVE TO FOLLOW U ALL TO EAT AT CAFE 1... IS TAT WAT U ALL CALLED TRUE FRIENDS, I DUNNO, TO SOME MAYBE. Well I am nt trying to bring bad names to u all....but try to think, try to remember u have done so far...do u try to understand my feeling as a friend... THINK, LOOK AT THE MIRROR, DEN ASK URSELF.... Well maybe u all gonna hate me more, I dunno... I am fine wif it...I don`t even feel welcome wen being wif u all.

Wat I knw, tis 18 march....I want to enjoy my day wif my ex greenridgean... Well can`t wait to meet u guys n girls(Greenridgean)... Hope we all going to have a great day... Well the post abt my classmate, nt all of them re being responsible..Some of them only..n u knw who am I referring to..Well u may nt want to admit it, god knw better.. So I am nt forcing u to admit or anything, juz hope tat u all will be able to sedar n nt do it on ur future friends....

Ok....I let out all my feelings...so its great... well I have told u in my first or sec post.. Don`t judge a book by its cover, I am nt the person tat u all see as friendly or too patience... I can be patience n friendly, but tat also depend of how u treat me... I can go extra miles for a true friend..but don`t ever make me hate u...tats all..

Before i forget....I was feeling aggitated tis past few week.. I am sorry if I were to scold anyone or anything while I am online or live....Especially my GF.....I am sorry dear... Didn`t mean to say those words... hope we can learn frm our mistake...

Well gtg..
Hopefully I will post more...

Hmm...for tat someone who want me to update..haha

2008-12-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

Hey..hey..hey.... I am back wif more irelevant and relevant untold stories..
Firstly...some of the people know tat I have been bz working n completing my FYP. Well its been quite tiring for me. Luckily my eyebag didn`t seem too obvious. Well some may knw where I work, some don`t. So tis somebody keep pestering me to update my blog abt my work...well I won`t let him/her down.

My first impression was a breeze, but still nervous cause u knw wen 1 on 1 wif ur employer. Wen I first wen dere, the staff were friendly. They even gave me a free drink even still I don`t knw whether I got the job or nt. Start wif my training class at commonwealth, Haw Par Tech building. It was like a food paradise over there. When u were in the class, U can eat, drink as much as u want. Well they will stack up stocks. 3 days of training at Har Tech Building den start training at my store...(Well won`t tell where my place is...muahaha.). Its kind of great working at my store, well there are many thing at there.

The Christmas Give away for charity event(4th December 2008)

The exciting day but yet tiring. Well suppose to reach at my work place by 3, but it rain heavily so reach ard 3 plus going 4. Wen I reach dere, dere were no crowd. So change n get ready my clothes and aprons. Den had a store meeting right b4 the event start. I was assign at the condiment bar where the straws, napkins, sugar n so on. I have to great the customer wen the customer leaving the place. Well, I was nervous at first cause it my first tyme working dere n I don`t knw the condition over dere. I could see all the ex - partner of Starbuck came back to help the store. They were like shouting, taking photo. The atmosphere was so havoc n intense( in a happy way) tat I was like wow. It shows how close the partners were. So we all started count down. The crowd was so massive tat I felt tat we re going to pump alot of energy. The queue was long. One of my partner who is the crowd controller call in 5 people at a tyme to place their order for a free drinks. The people from Salvation Army move around to get as many donation as they can get. The one who was station with me have to ring the bell. At first she use her left hand, den change to right hand n at last both hand..hehe After few min, I have to follow some of my partners to attract more customer. I have to hold the signboard while my others partners gave away flyers abt tis event. After distributing the flyer, we wen up to our store n wen to our assign place. The crowd got longer wen we reach to our store. Few min later, I have to down again, holding the board n shout" Starbucks tall size drink for free at 2nd level", " Thank You" Well, while shouting tat, I saw tis gangster frm my school. So I was like approaching to him n trying to give him the flyer. He juz walk like tat. I was so frustrated. He thing he is so big. Well I guess if I fought him..I can juz straighten my hand n put it at his forehead n let him attack without him hitting me.
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Something like wat I the figure above. Well atleast there are some gangster took my flyers n even say thank you. That I respect the most. Well the one who walk away is a year 1 in my ITE Collage. So nw who cares. It is a past alreadi. I make new friends frm the guys,girls n even auntie at the computer shops n spectacle shop. The auntie took my specs n clean it for me. I was like wow...so great..hehe. We end the event at 7. After tat, we clean the store n close it arnd 8 plus. We have to wait cause my fav store manager, Mas. She order over 10 box of Canadian Pizza. We ate n chill inside the store. I was kind of bored cause I am still a newbie, so I took the opprtunity to go to the games shop to play Guitar Hero. Well I mostly play my fav song, The Kill frm 30 Seconds frm Mars. They came to me n disturb...haha. Well I manage to play well. After everything done. Mas,Kak Yatie, Fadly n me lepak at one spot. At there, we were talking abt who is nt straight, den abt Aisyah( one of the so call hot partner, well for me is not hot ) We chat n joke arnd. Took the last train hm via woodland.

Great store meeting( 06 December 2008 )

Well I have to go 4 my training at store. After my training, we have our store meeting at OK Starbuck near one Fullerton, under the bridge. We had our meeting, den we wen to Chunkfeast from Ben and Jerry at Fort Canning Park. Well got no photo. Well I like the band playing. There is one band, I forget the name of the band, one of the guitarist is hot.(wat I mean the guitarist is a girl.) The band consist of 5 people. 4 guys n a girl. They sound good. I prefer the Chunkfeast rather den the band playing at Esplanade. The sound at Esplanade sound out of tune n the speakers sound, sound so weird. The bass is not up to the standard. Well at Chunkfeast, we met Aisyah n her friends. After tat we ate at Youth Park. After eating we went home. Apit n Qane met someone while me n Fadly wen hm by bus. While we were on the way home. My mom called me asking me where I am. After all tat, she told me tat my uncle wanted to play bowling n bring my whole family to play at Chevrons. I was like...oh sh*t, how am I going to follow dem. i was lucky tat the bus driver wa speeding very fast. Reach CCK less den 20 min. Meet my Family at interchange n wen to Chevrons. My uncle drove the lorry. The wind at night felt cold. Lucky I brought my jacket. Reach Chevrons at 12 plus. We play bowling until 2.40. Reach hm arnd 3.30.. Well I sleep late reaching 4.

Well tats all Folks n lastly Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

18/Oct/08 Raya Outing with Greenridgean

2008-10-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

Hey....Today I went out wif my secondary schoolmates... Well start off at Siti Aisyah(Aisyah) house, suppose to be dere by 2.00pm. Eventually I was late due to Iskandar Giant who were suppose to meet me at Pheonix Station but back out last min due to people coming to his house. So reach Aisyah house arnd 3. I was surprised because Aisyah use the same color as my Baju Kurung n Samping..hehe... I was wearing a shiny dark blue Baju Kurung with white n gold samping. For Aisyah, she wore the same color as me but wif a bit of white n gold design... Well I can say, it is a coincidence tat we wore the same colour. Ate Mee Bandung at Aisyah house, den left for Namira house. Well, Syafiqah meet us at Namira place. She didn`t follow us due to some reason, well I dunno. After Namira house, we went to Sofie house. At Sofie house, we ate Mee Soto, Well not only tat, her mom gave us Ice Cream as a dessert. After tat, we went to Shikin(KinKin) hehe, house. Well her mom cook Mee Goreng n nuggets. Ate abit cause ate alot of Mee alreadi..hehe(Well I ate more nugget den Mee.) After Shikin house, we went to Iskandar Giant house. At his house, his mom cook Kuey Tiou Goreng... Well, Iskandar cousin, Amir n the family also came. After Iskandar house, we went to my house. Well my house, I served them only Jemput - jemput cause every house we ate Mee. So abit of change..hehe. After my house, we went to Roslina(Lina) house. Spend dere for a few min, den left. By the tyme we reach Lina house, it is 9plus. Stay dere for a while den left for Farhan house at Marsiling. Reach Farhan house arnd 11. We watch Kecoh - kecoh raya until 12. Aisyah, Namira, Roslina n me share a cab. Well, we send Aisyah n Namira first cause they live at Bukit Panjang area. Den my place n Lina is the last place the cab send. Iskandar Giant ride Sofie motor while Farhan send Yusra home.

Well I would like to Give A Big Thanks to Everyone who attend n especially to Aisyah cause she is the one who organise the event.

The people attend:

Girls:
Aisyah
Ashikin
Roslina
Namira
Yusra

Guys:
Iskandar Giant
Sofie
Farhan
Me

Well for those who can`t go tis year. Maybe nxt year we all will go again..

Signing Off
Emo_ShadowZ

My tired week

2008-10-13T10:32:00.004+08:00

Well I can say my past week is very tiring for me... I been going out a lot lately. Well I had to go jalan raya, clean the house, run errants n many more... The most tiring thing is when I ve to work after going out from jalan raya.. Well it was on the Friday when I went out wif my drama friends for jalan raya.... Have to reach Pasir Ris station by 10.00am, so have to wake up early for tat... Firstly wen to Munirah house , Diane house, Aby house, Luqman house. (Well. Ithink tats all...if i miss any house I am sorry...STM) Well I have to reach to my work place by 8.30pm... Not only tat..I have to teach my Silat student moves for the sunday performance(its a last min work cause some want to join last min) Bfore tat, I have to rush home to take my clothes n stuff cause I will be sleeping dere at my workplace...(Luckily my workplace is near...opp Lot 1..The court..Cause dere is an event.) Well I train my student n work is at the same place. Taught dem the steps, by 10.30pm, they got the moves. After tat, I have to start working(luckily my Silat manager is part of the catering service which I work) Well have to cut the onions,luckily I didn`t shed any tear.. Quite amazing tat the onions are big n yet the juice it nt like the normal onions..No matter how many u cut the onoins, u will nt cry. The onions is called bawang jepun...hehe sound weird.
Iskandar fried the chicken...The manager left the two of us n went home...Well onli me n Iskandar Giant have to do the work. Well we underestimate the chicken..hehe.. we thought we can cook the chicken very fast...but we re wrong...The oil tat we re using is like boiling instead of frying...Cause the chicken contain the water n spices...(mostly water)...Tat slow us down.... we have to change the hot oil den have to use another big frying pan...Seriously we were quite bz doing the stuff... We don`t have rest.. We finish frying the chicken by 6 plus am.(there is a lot of chicken tats y took alot of tyme... By den, we wanted to rest, but we can`t cause people have started walking here n dere(going to work n so on).. I manage to sleep abt 10min or less... While I was resting, alot of thing bothering my mind. I am scared tat the bird will take the fried chicken, den the knife n alot of stuff...sacred people would take it. While waiting for my manager n so on, I juz watch people while I force my eyes to open.. There is one guy trying to take a chair for him to seat near the bus stop...I have to stop him cause if he did tat,the others will follow..
8 plus am, my manager came. He let us off home to bath n eat.. Well we rush to our invidual home. I bath den I went out back to work. I forget to have my breakfast. Haizz..... Well Iskandar giant said he will be late abit. Reach dere, re fried the chicken(luckily it did nt take long tyme) den start cuttintg the prawn...Accidentally I poke my finger at the prawn sharp horns( alot of tyme, somehow its the same finger n at the nearest spot...very painfull(bleed abit) Iskandar came n cut the vegetable.. After tat we have to fix the table n chair, more tiring, my stomach is growling too..hehe.. Have to do the table skirting..Finish wif the table arnd 5 pm... My staff came. Den ask dem to wash the plate n so on... I help a bit...nt much cause hungry n sleepy already... Iskandar keep saying to me to sit n rilex...Well I can`t cause I have to get the things ready by 7. The event will start at 7.30 pm.. I rush my staff n myself... Luckily we manage to get ready bfore the event start. (Thanks to my wonderful crew/staff) The event is quite huge.... We finish our work arnd 12plus am going to 1 am due to alot of dishes n have to clear the table n skirting..

Well after clearing....Sofie, Syafiqah, Azmi, Iskandar, Aslam, Syakir n me chill over there. While they were talking abt motor, I slept for a while cause I felt too tired...Well juz slp on the floor... Aslam n Iskandar ask Sofie to bring his bike to the court, well Azmi also bring in the bike... I was woke up wen they said they want to ride the bike...Well I force myself to stand up..Aslam ride Azmi bike(juz playing the trottle..hehe) Iskandar tried to learn how to ride the bike...Well I thought Iskandar abit...At first, he did nt want to try cause he is afraid...Aslam ride Azmi bike, while riding he almost make a donut. Hehe...he was quite lucky..I guess he press the front brake too much until the front tyre skid sideways...Wen he fell, he still turn the trottle...Tat make the bike go 1 round around him(tat make look like a donut..hehe). After Aslam...I ride Sofie bike..Well, I stalled 2 times...The third time, I was riding the bike without any problem... Iskandar try... Iskandar is also lucky...I guess he press the clutch abit(maybe reaching the biting point) n the trottle too much... The worst is wen he juz let go of the clutch, the motor jerk n he was like doing a wheelie..hehe...Luckily the motor did nt smash on him...Syakir also ride the bike...nothing happen like me...

We lepak until 2 plus, I reach home ard 3 plus...I slept arnd 3plus going to 4.. The nxt day I have to go 4 my Silat performance by 10.00am... I woke ard 9.30am n had to rush dere...Luckily its the same place as the yesterday event.... Run dere...Well, wen I reach dere, I saw Didi cazli n Nurul performing.. After their performance, we have to perform Silat....After perform, me n my pesilat wen lot 1 to eat...After eating, everybody wen home, wen I reach home, no one was dere. So I decide to go Queensway to buy the hardisk....Reach dere bought the hardisk n M2 memory card for only $105 only...Wen to Lot 1 again to buy food for my hamster,den went Long John Silver to buy food for me...At dere met Ratna n her brother... Walk for a while den wen home... Reach home arnd 10 plus

Outing wif my Silat Keat Hong on 5 OCT 2008

2008-10-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late post on 5 OCt 2008....Well wen out wif my Silat Keat Hong zone 6 group. Well we went to Cik Azmi house....Well before reaching at Cik Azmi house, I met problems n old friend. Well we were suppose to meet at CCK MRT by 12.00pm , eventually met my group going to 1.00pm. While waiting, I ran into my old friend, Sharizal. We chat for a while den he have to go off... Met my group, den wen to Bukit Batok to go to Cik Azmi house... eventually we do nt have his address...We called many times but his handphone is off...we do nt have his house number. It took abt going to 1hour to be able to contact him. By the tyme me reach dere is arnd 3.00pm.....We karaoke at his house...we were dere for many hours.... Den wen to Cik Jamaliyah house...We were dere nt long cause we have waste too much tyme at Cik Azmi house. After tat we wen to Shukur house, Den wen to Liana house by the tyme I reach home, Its was 10 plus. .. It was tiring, but great..hehe

Today Hari Raya Outing....

2008-10-09T00:24:00.005+08:00

Well...I juz got home arnd 12.10am.. Today, I followed Diane n Fiqah classmate for the Hari Raya outing. Well we started off arnd 11 plus at Naqiah`s house. Well at her house, we ate spaghetti.. Yum-yum, it was delicious. Hehe. After tat, we went to my house. Well my house got nothing much. Juz ate popiah n hotdog. Well can say, we took picture at every house we went. After my house, we went to Adit`s house cause it is near. Den to Fiqah house... Well will nt type much detail, tired....hehe. Den to Ali`s house....Den to Azizah`s house.....Den to Razin`s house.....Den to Diane`s.....Lastly to Wan`s house... Well, I enjoy my day, eventhought I may not knw some of them...Well they are friendly, I can say, I manage to joke wif them....Well to tell the truth, I thought I can`t able to get along wif them cause I am a outsider. But to my surprise, I was wrong....hehe...They were very friendly then I expected...^_^

Guys n Girls.....Thanks For The Outing!!!! Its Great!!!!

Guys:

Adib
Ali
Wan
Razin

Gurls:

Naqiah
Diane
Fiqah
Azizah

Signing Off
EmO_HaPpY ShAdoWz

To my sick friend

2008-09-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

To Efa,
Well another 2 more days, hari raya is coming n my friend Efa is sick, she is having a flu. Well tis post is to cheer her up n to motivate her...Well don`t give up. Don`t forget to eat the medicine. Hope u will recover soon

From
EmO_ShaDowZ

Hoping for forgiveness

2008-09-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

Well, lately I have been making alot of mistake n wrongdoing to my friend...
I would like to say sorry to everyone for my wrongdong n mistake.. Well as a human being, u knw we always make mistake. I am nt a god or a prophet which did nt make mistake..
Well I would like to ask for forgiveness to my oldest friend cause I accidentally let go of his secret. Well it wasn`t my intention to say it, it juz tat I forget or maybe misheard abt the the secret. I knw u felt ashamed, but I felt worst. Even wen the tyme u called me, I could nt do anything but to keep quiet. I kept quiet, nt because of being rude, I kept quiet because I felt wrong n guilty for my wrong doing. But still, I kept ur deepest darkest secret. Seriously I admit my mistake. I didn`t mean to hurt my friend, but wat can I do, it is already happen. Right nw, I feel ashamed n guilty to even to talk n meet him, right nw feeling paisey(ashamed). Well I duuno if u were to read tis, but I hope u forgive me. If u don`t, I could nt do anything but to accept the fact...

Well to others, If I did anything wrong, hope u forgive me. I am a human after all..

Fiqah Birthday

2008-09-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

Well today is Nurafiqah Bte Roslie, well she had been helping me in a lot of ways. Mostly in emotional ways..There is a lot of people who help me, but Fiqah had been wif me through thick n thin of my prob... Well eventhough we broke up,still she help me.Well I would like to say happy birthday to her..Happy 18 Birthday
Smile always

29/09/08: Going to Alexandra Hospital

2008-09-29T23:00:00.003+08:00

Well, today I went to Alexandra Hospital for my check up...Recently I had a check up at CMPB n they refer me to Alexandra Hospital. They said tat my heart beat is abnormal...Well I dunno wat they mean by tat.. So, took bus 61 to Alexandra Hospital. It took quite sometyme, it travel frm Bukit Batok using Bukit Timah rd den travel to Holland Rd, I felt very bored n wanted to sleep, well, I can`t because I was nervous n scared tat I miss the stop.. In my mind, I kept tinking, whether I got heart disease or wat cause I need to refer to hospital...

Reach dere early, reach ard 8plus going to 9, my appointment suppose to be at 9.55am. The nurses ask me to remove my shirt cause the doctor wanted to scan my heart using the sonar ultrasound..It took quite sometyme as need to wait for the doctor n apply the cream at my heart area...Well after the check, the doctor said I am fine, my heart beat is normal, maybe tat tyme due to stress tats y my heart beat is abnormal... Well, atleast I felt relief after hearing tat...

My EmO Friend

2008-09-24T17:30:00.002+08:00

Well,

Tis post is for Efa....

Well no matter how sad u re.. Do remember tat the brothers n sisters of Keat Hong is still dere for u no matter wat happen... U may be heart broken right nw... Don`t be shy to talk to us... We will lend our shoulder to u....
Well do stay smiling always even wen u read tis post.... Its may not be much
But remember, we will try to be dere for u

P.S: Efa read tis n tink of the fun moment we all have at Keat Hong(Don`t forget to smile)

Signing Off
EmO_ShaDowZ

On Hafiz Bday 23/09/08

2008-09-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

Hey its Hafiz Y bday yesterday...Well Munirah plan a surprise for him...Well its great.. We all were suppose to meet at habourfront mrt by 5..Well I n Fiqah came early cause need to pass game to her...We reach dere by 4 plus... We waste our tyme by window shopping... Arnd 5 plus, we meet Mun n some of them....After meeting some of them, we went to the rooftop to plan wat we re going to do..... Arnd 6 plus...wen to buy food...By the we reach back at the rooftop is like 7 plus..

We gather n thought of suprising Hafiz, he went to buy cigarette... We ate our food while waiting for him... Well I bought a Fish Blackpepper Claypot.. Quite nice..

He came, well we thought of giving him the birthday cake, well some of our friend wen to buy food...So its a good manner for everyone to arrive, den we can surprise him wif the cake...
Everyone reach n we surprise him wif the cake... cut,ate n gave him present..
Well Fiqah(Frabbit), Ratna(Ratata) n I shared money to buy him a Total Nike slipper...hehe
Well its my guess of buying him a slipper n the size of his leg...Ratna aslo did thought of buying for him a slipper.. Atlast we 3 share together to give him the slipper...

Well I did manage to sabo The Birthday boy by wiping the cake at his face...haha(well a thought of making like a sergent line, eventually the cake drips..hehe) Well I also got a surprise, eventhought Fiqah is my ex...I did promise her to buy a bear for her bday...well I didnt manage to buy for her the bear tat she want...Instead I gave her 3 present... Well I guess, she will write in her blog... I will nt tell.. She also gave me me a cool Chelsea Cap...its a champions league edition.. Well its great...Tats how I face my day for yesterday..

Well,
Signing Off
EmO_ShaDowZ

Me...Mylyfe...Myself

2008-09-20T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hey..maybe u guys felt tat I am inmatured due to my recent post...Well talking abt family prob,friends n so on.... Well to tell the truth..I felt tat people don`t understand my feeling n wat my needs....Yes...I may not tell wat I feel or wat I want...As normal human, we wear mask.. We may be alone at times n said u juz need ur tyme alone...but deep inside, I feel sad or or alone... Even my own family don`t understand wat I felt... I am not trying to talk bad abt my family or friends... But tis is the fact...juz tat u all juz didn`t notice wat I felt....I dunno, if I were to be dead... will I still be happy...Maybe not... Sometimes I cried wen I am alone or think abt the past things... Its not tat I am a cry baby...Wat I mean I will juz wept n not cry in massive.. Well wat can I do... I juz have to live wif it...well will nt type tat much on tis post...Don`t want to hurt anybody feelings....

Signing Off
EmO_ShaDowZ

I am bored n frustated of everything

2008-09-20T12:50:00.003+08:00

Well start my day like normal.... Clean the kitchen...
Seriously I felt bored cleaning the house... I felt like I am a girl.... Seriously felt idiotic...
Clean kitchen, hall n sometimes have to cook.... Haiz... I aggitated by my mom.. Yes as a son, we have to clean the house.. tat I knw. But U as a reader...how does it felt wen u have to do work at home while ur brother n sister(wat I mean ur younger sibling) is working outside.. First its my fault cause I did not find a job..Second do u tink its fair tat wen u were in secondary 4... U can`t work due to ur study...I can say I was a slower student, so I buck up by going to a lot of classes.. I got tution,class remedial.. It was stressing for me but I manage to grow through it...My point is tat my brother is going through his sec 4 lyfe n he had stayed back in sec 3 bfore... But nw I can say tat he is nt studying right nw...He is busily working n my mom is like nt bother abt my brother result...Wen I look at my brother mid-year result, I can say tat he failed badly.. Can`t even get a 10 point to make through sec 5... I can say, my mid year is also quite bad, I manage to get 12 point...I studied hard, n manage to pull through my `N` level... Well my so called mission, if I were to fail, I must fail wif dignity..wat I mean is tat,if i were to fail,I must fail wif a 100% effort been put on the thing tat I fail..I don`t want to fail juz like tat... My mom is not doing anything.. I knw my family had financial prob, but at least tink abt the future..The future of my brother.. He had been socialise wif bad company, i knw his secret...But I didn`t even tell my mom abt it....He`s been working quite often lately...(I dunno if he had been working or nt...) My main point on tis post is tat,If he work tat much, might as well he sleep dere n don`t come home.. I have to clean everybody S***T....My grandma always said/scold me tat we, my family like to juz leave the dish without washing it....Well..I can say,I always wash the stupid dishes after I ate...i didn`t wash the dish wen everybody start to juz leave the dish at the sink....Wen the dish pile up, the person who is going to wash is my grandma n me n sometimes my grandpa.. I knw part of my ego is making me feel angry...But u try to see other family. Most of them were train to wash their dish after eating n not juz leaving it for other to wash it...Even the mattress, i clear my own mattress wen I wake up...Well for my brothers, I have to clean for them... Its stressing to face the same situation everyday...I knw I am the eldest amng my brothers, but still its like, I do nt gain any respect...I onli gain respect wen I will start shouting at them... For my second bro..Tat will be a difficult situation.. I have to either give up or juz forget abt it... For my sec bro, I can`t use my shout anymore cause it will nt work... Sometimes I juz wanna give a jab or two... But I will get more severe beating frm my mom n dad...Well I use to beat my sec brother wen he annoyed me, but nw I am nt beating him anymore cause I am more civilise n I do respect him as he is a growing teen..Now,if he were to annoy me, I will juz ignore him or go away...Sometime my brother do disrespect my grandpa n me...But to my mom n sometimes grandma it a joke... My brother will sometimes annoy me or make my grandpa angry... Well if it were me last tyme...i will be beaten by my dad..I still remember, wen I was a small kid. Wen we walk infront of n adult, we have to bent down abit as a show of respect...I could still remember I was scold for nt doing tat...Its is sad...Everything tat i was scold bfore is nw a no use to my brother... My dad is nw working hard, so he can`t be looking after everything in the family..den wat is the use of a mother.. I am nt disrespecting my mom or others...Its juz tat as a mom... do confront ur child behaviour n ways...
Hmm..there is a lot of thing tat I wanted to say...But I guess, I will stop here.... Will type more post soon

Signing Off
EmO_ShaDowZ

18 sept 2008/outing post

2008-09-20T12:05:00.002+08:00

Hey..back wif more post...
On 18 sept, wen out wif my classmate...Well, its great. I was suppose to be late due to some issue..Well not onli me, Dayah n Zam was late also. Well reach dere arnd 5 plus, took some photo, walk through the bazaar n reach at tis restaurant arnd 6..( sorry got no photo )
We reach at the restaurant early, our break-fast is arnd 7 plus... so waited for Sofie,Hafiz n Fathu....While waiting, we order our meals...

Arnd 630,Fathu came. Fathu said tat he n Sofie were riding along side each other..Den at Dairy Farm, he lost sight of Sofie n Hafiz... According to Fathu, he was riding at lower speed... Eventually, Sofie was caught in a traffic. Tat is y they were left out.

Arnd 645. Sofie called...He said tat he n Hafiz is lost....So I have to meet Sofie n Hafiz at the traffic juction which is going towards Joo Chiat complex..Met Hafiz n Sofie arnd 7 plus, luckily there is a shop nerby where I am waiting for them.. Bought a redbull, while I was abt to break-fast, I saw them... We head towards the restaurant....Ate there...I bought a Pataya Fried Rice....The Pataya Friend Rice is quite massive, wat I mean is tat the Pataya Fried Rice is quite a lot... I was full eating juz tat.....After we ate, we went to the bazaar n den to City Plaza( I tink so, tats wat it is called)We were juz walking ard, after tat wen to beside the mrt train station....I am not sure wat it is called... We took picture n chat over dere.. We left arnd 9 or 10 plus....I am nt sure....Tats all tat happen...I manage to enjoy it...Well its great.^_^

Lately my PM on MSN is currently like emo or sad.

2008-09-19T18:53:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.... Lately my PM on MSN is currently like emo or sad. Well its nothing, I hope u guys don`t take it too hard... Well its not abt u all, its juz abt me... I hate myself for the changes in me.. I am not like the old me, I have changed. I become more fragile and I am easily get fed up very fast..
My emotional is mostly mix up wif PAIN, INSECURE, COLD, BITTERNESS AND A BIT OF HAPPINESS..
Well tats all I am going to say...
GTG

Signing Off
EmO_ShAdowZ

My randomness again

2008-09-18T01:22:00.002+08:00

Hmm....How to start... My randomness... I was getting ready for the break-fast... Was scooping the rice wen out of sudden, the girl who I admire which I gave a nickname Milo suddenly appear in my mind.( I didn`t knw her name, so call her Milo cause she look sweet n sometimes I mixed up wif her sister cause they`re twins.) I had tis feeling tat she is sad...but I dunno whether it is for real or wat... Seriously it is funny, out of the blue, she came in my mind n its like I manage to surpress her feeling eventhough I dunno wat she felt tat point of tyme..

Tis is part of my weird n randomness... Well I got nothing much to say...
Everyday is like normal day....wake up clean house, play game n chat...tats all.

Signing Off
EmO_ShaDoWz

Relating to yesterday post

2008-09-17T14:25:00.002+08:00

I want to sing a HAPPY DEATH DAY SONG TO ME

HAPPY DEATH DAY TO ME, HAPPY DEATH DAY TO ME

HAPPY DEATH DAY TO ME, HAPPY DEATH DAY TO ME

HAPPY DEATH DAY TO ME.....!!!!

I am not feeling well...just ignore tis post if u tink I am insane.
Maybe I am going insane soon..
Muahaha

sIgNiNg oFF
EmO_ShAdoWZ

My Birthday ??? Hmm

2008-09-16T01:38:00.003+08:00

1.42pm

Today is my bday and I don`t feel anything special.... I don`t even feel tat today is my birthday..

Anyway friends, THANKS for the wishes...It realli mean much for me...Friends realli bright my day...

The first thing wen I woke up was my mom ordering me to wipe the window... I could juz keep
quiet n do the cleaning... Not only tat, I have to do some of the chores like everyday...

I am bored right now...Its 1.45pm n I want to go out, but nobody to go with....

Haiz.... Wat a dull day...seriously.... How I wish I had a work but not house chores, so I can release some tension n earn money as well... Now I am bankrupt. If I want to go out,hmm, need money definitely. If I'am nt going out, well its going to be very very bored...
Well, I will stop my lame chattering.... Maybe I will continue at night....See if there is any changes...

10.48pm

I am back wif more lame chattering....juz came back from Farhan house...

Anyway let me continue my day...hmm..any changes?

I can say there is few changes.

Let start wif the chores, need to clean the house...bla..bla..bla

den at abt 5 plus, need to buy cake for myself...Need to go to LOT 1 to buy the cake.

My grandma sponsor the cake....tats great...she gave me $60..its for the cake n the rest its for me...But my mom said to me buy the cake frm Royal..She said it look nice..For me it look like a marble cake....cause it is layer after layer..strawberry layer..

The cake itself cost abt like $31 n it is nt tat huge like the normal cake...

Wat to do...juz buy.. Anyway tis is the cake...Onli got no number 1,words n strawberries...
Juz a plain cake wif some frost in the middle n cherries.

Back to lame chattering... bought the cake, the auntie gave me a brownies as a present.. She asked me,who is tis cake for..so I said its for me...She keep repeating happy bday...I was smiling non-stop.I guess, I blush a bit. The auntie said it loud...some people was looking at me...Paid n said thank u den quickly left the scene....
Met my grandma who went dentist den we head home..
We break - fast, my mom juz cook soup instead of delightful delicacy which everyone had on the their bday..Tat tyme on my mom bday, she had tis yummy potato ball which have meat inside it... but for me juz a soap. It consist of potato cube, the tofu n egg...juz tat..

After eating, I went to my friend house to help him carry some stuff cause he is shifting to other house... He move from Bukit Panjang to Woodland...Its quite tiring because of the refrigerator which is very heavy..Well tats how I celebrate my bday....

but....

People once again, I want to wish thanks for the wishes....Really appreciate..
Cheers for the wishes. Tats all I going to say...
Goodnight,want to rilex my ache body n hand..
Want to apply lotion to the cut at my hand..
Night

Signing Off
EMo SHaDowZ

HAPPY DEATH DAY FOR ME..YEAH T_T

Continue on my Screwed Day

2008-09-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

HEY....!!!!

Firstly I would like to thank my friends for their moral suport...

Guys ur great...Thanks again for the concern.... ^_^

Eventhough today my days seems dark...My fren brought the light to me in many ways

My Bloody Screwed Day

2008-09-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

Today suppose to be my End Of Year Exam...I screwed up my day by waking up late...
I manage to wake up for my fasting breakfast, den I continue study for my exam. I slept quite late tats y I was a little tired.I slept ard 3 plus. Wen I continue my study after the fasting breakfast, I eventually fell asleep while studying.. I woke up arnd 9 plus. How I wish I can shout/type vulgariteis....
I felt really sad..study hard n eventually wasted juz like tat. Maybe its not my day today.
I can`t turn back tyme...I wish I have the power to turn back tyme.

So now I have to look on the bright side, must be optimistic... I have the knowledge of the subject, so wen I were to stay back, atleast I knw wat to do...Yeah....Onli juz another half a year to stay back for tat subject....Eventhough its a waste of tyme..

Anyway my bday is coming, I don`t tink I am going to celebrate due to tis exam. I have no mood to celebrate my bday tis year....I can say, I seldom celebrate my bday. So I got a hang of it already...

Goodluck to my classmate for the NMS paper...
Tis paper is a must to go...
I don`t want to repeat 2 module....I must pass my NMS hopefully...
N tis tyme,I dun`t want to study tat late....

2008-08-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn’t take this anymore
What would you do, do, do? Come break me down....Bury me, bury me..I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life...What would you do? (do, do)
You say you wanted more...What are you waiting for?
I’m not running from you...Come break me down, Bury me, bury me...I am finished with you. Look in my eyes... You’re killing me, killing me.. All I wanted was you.... I tried to be someone else.. But nothing seemed to change.. I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself... Fighting for a chance.. I know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down, Bury me, bury me..I am finished with you, you, you...Look in my eyes...You’re killing me, killing me... All I wanted was you.. Come break me down.. Break me down.. Break me down.. What if I wanted to break?

continue wif last blog

2008-08-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

I guess, there are some prob wif the blog....I wrote longer post, but it didn`t appear...BTW I am nt trying to give bad name or wat so ever...Juz wanna let go the burden tat I have been carrying all tis year. Anyway its nt all my friend who behave like tat ... As i was saying, I really feel like I am a dog cause have to listen to wat they said... Its not tat I dun have the courage or to go on my own direction, its juz tat i respect all as a best friend...But do I gain the respect... NO...Tats wat matter me the most...Wen they said they dont want to go here n dere,we follow...but wen I said,I want to go there, they will say they don`t want or lazy to go there.... Sometimes human can be selfish..I won`t denied it...Even me as a normal human will be selfish at tymes, only tat we did nt notice it. Sometimes I may nt feel it as my ego is high, but after reflect myself, I would say sorry. The worst thing is wen it is nt my fault, I said sorry. But who cares..it doesn`t hurt wen you say sorry to others even u re nt in the wrong position. I am nt refering to anyone...here are the examples: Asking me out 4 an gathering, den in the end everybody had something...some need to go off, sometimes even cancel...How do u feel wen u re ready,den it was cancel or u went dere eat n den go home..Its a waste of my money n ezlink isn`t it. The worst is wen I follow them, they seldom entertain me, I don`t mind if u don`t entertain me all the tyme,but once a while do talk or ask for opinion on where want to go...Nt much isn`t it..2nd example: Wen they want to go to see their special one, as a friend we juz follow him/her(nt trying to reveal)...but wen I want to see my special one, they juz say u go alone. Sometymes went they want to see performance, I juz follow them...Let juz be straight foward, I listen to wat they said, but they don`t listen to wat I said... Tats all... I nt trying to taunt my friends or wat so ever....hope they will understand wat I had been going throught....Juz wanna blow out but due to my patience, I can`t...

Keep Holding On / Inspiration Lost

2008-07-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish I wanna shoot myself everyday....Sometimes I felt like breaking down.... I don`t know if I fell to the floor, couldn`t take it anymore...will anybody help me?
S_A_D_N_E_S_S___A_N_D___A_B_S_U_R_D
Firstly... My inspiration girl is gone...Nothing to do wif my ex... The inspiration girl do give me the inspiration to keep study and come to school....But now, wen she is gone. I don`t hav the motivation to go on study...To tell the truth.. I felt like nt going to school anymore cause I felt depress despite the fact people saw me laughing. I am depress wif a lot of think. Anyway I will not elaborate much..
P_A_I_N___A_N_D___A_N_G_U_I_S_H
Secondly...I hav been keep holding on...To tell the truth,it is very pain but I am enduring it...I felt my life is a bad fate, especially wif friends. I dunno whether there is something wrong wif me or them. For the past few years, I felt like I am a dog to my friends...From secondary... I felt like I am juz a minorities...To follow my friend says...N to tink tat they will listen to wat I am going to say..Its a Fat Hope... Secondary till nw my life is like a dog. Sometimes, I wanted to shout it out, but wat can I do...Like wat people would say...True Friends Are Like A Diamond. Wat it mean is tat true friends tat will stick wif u even wen u are in a difficult situation is very rare to find.
Sometimes people said u re my best friend, but do they really mean it or do they understand wat it mean. Maybe some will say tat I am juz talking rubbish or I am juz trying to create story...Well I don`t mind if people say tat I am creating stories. Well nt only me felt tis way. Some of my friend felt it. In secondary, I hav noticed tat years after years without fail, I will be left astray. Till nw in ITE, I felt like tat. Some say tat my jokes are SUPER LAME. I know tat it is lame. Sometimes other people make lame jokes n you all laugh saying it is funny... I knw different people had different ways of accepting thing. But the fact I am juz who I am. Diz is juz part of it.... I don`t tink i want to elaborate more...

My Emo past month

2008-07-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

I can say, I have been sensitive lately... maybe because of all the stuff which have been playing arnd my mind... Respect and understanding each other had been playing in my mind... I got very agitated due to my friends. I am not trying to find fault or wat, since I can`t say, I will juz write it down...(If u all wanna hate me after tis post, its ok.. if u re still my friend try find a way to solve tis)

1 : Agitated over my friends which say 1 for all, all for 1.

2: Agitated when friends leave u alone when they ask u out for n outing.

3: Agitated over friends who did nt respect me as I had given respect.

4: Agitated over friends who did nt understand my feeling while I have to understand theirs.

And many more

Maybe i will be editing dis post... i am sorry

One Last False Apology is the word of the Lust and Anguish

2008-05-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

QuiZ =)
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.B) Tag some people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.* * * * *

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?- Ask him what have i done and what is the matter?

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be ?- Buy myself a land so I can make money wif it.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?- Juz a normal wedding at the hotel.

#4 Are you hungry?- Nope, I am full cause too much water!!!!

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?- Not shorter than me. Romantic, lady-like and respectful.

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?- Both...depend on situation.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?- if that is really the one for me.

#8 If the person you secretly like (if there isn't one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?- It depend on situation...

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these day ?- Yah alot of things,my gf, my friend and my family...especially my gf testing my patient.

#10 Is there anything that has made you happy these days?- My 3 cute hamster make me happy.

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?- Maybe still studying like a mad guy....or maybe i will be a mad guy wif lots of problem. =)

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?- My friend....others, maybe..

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?- crazy, mad irritating, cause i tagged myself...haha... =)

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?- single and rich... =)#15 depend on situation.....

#16 Would you give all in a relationship?- depends...

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?- i dunno...I am facing it right nw...feel like killing myself..haiz

#18 Would you rather be friend with a geek who is a really nice guy or a super hawt dude but really isnt that nice to you(treats you badly as a friend, etc)?- Both don`t, cause i rather be alone... =)

#19 What are your friends usually like?- they made me laugh and always there for me, some make me sad...

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?- hypocrites, backstabbers, liars

Those that have to continue this quiz are:anyone...

Faiz Production / 4 month relationship

2008-03-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

I will skip a lot wat had happen in the last few month....
Today...on 25/3/08....
It was Faiz Production...So we have to meet at Century Square at 10.00 am....
I hav to meet Fiqah at 8.15 but I missed it cause it is due to my overslept....( I am SORRY MY DEAR )
Anyway I went there to wait 4 them cause they went to Faiz house...
At first I dunno where to go... So I walk ard eventhough the shop aren`t open yet...
After walking there 4 a few min...I went to dis flower shop called Xpress shop...
At first I don`t knw wat to buy 4 our 4th month anniversary...
I was lucky tat the Xpress shop is open... At first I wanted to buy her the bouquet of bear...Eventually it look kind of messy...Den I thought of buying the medium size bear...Wen I look at the price, I was shocked cause it cost ard $30 - 40 plus... Wen I wen outside of the shop...I found tis cute bear n it really have a good range of prices...I bought it as I dunno wat to buy....After buying it, wen it was ard 10 plus...the shop started to open, den I saw tis bear which can be recordable...eventually I bought the bear already, so I do not have much money to buy her the recordable bear...

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Ard 11 plus...We all met.
I was astonish wen I met her. ( My Darling )
She look more pretty....I couldn`t stop staring at her ... hehe
I hope she will wear more of tat type of clothes... hehe
To me she is my precious diamond...
Tats y I love her, Hmm , want to say SO...nah... SUPER DUPER MUCH...
Sayang I hope We will be together till our death part us....
Anyway I am going to log out...see ya all in the next coming post.
I will try to update more.
Love Fiqah So The Much ( hehe)

Drama Audition

2008-03-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

Drama Audition!!! Its an audition for Grease the Musical. What we did was dancing and acting.
2 Me it was kind of slumpy cause I knw I can`t dance n can`t sing tat well...
But wat surprised me is tat i made in into the Grease Musical...At first I was reluctant to join cause Fiqah n most of the drama member did not get selected 4 the Grease Musical (It is more 2 Fiqah...hehe)
Anyway we made alot of friends despite they are 4rm other school. I hope most of the drama group join this april intake... Goodluck to everyone ...

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After tat... Hafiz H, Iskandar, Sofie n I went to City Hall to rilex ourselves at the Esplanade....
We bought KFC food n ate at Esplanade...
Tats wat i did 4 tat day....

Celebrating wif my girlfriend on 6th February

2008-03-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

On 6th February...Hmm...Where do I start....?Hmm....
It was a holiday for my class as Chinese New Year is coming....Our teacher said tat we do nt need to come so we took the time going out wif our love one...
My family had planned to go to Batam(Belakang Padang)...Eventually I did nt follow them on tat day bcause I thought I had a work. Anyway I went out wif Fiqah, I am seriously sorry bcause I had to make her wait for me for several hours. It is due to my family, Since they`re going HabourFront I thought they could send me on their way there..By waiting for them to get ready.It took them a few hours...Upon reaching there, I called Fiqah to meet me at HabourFront...Tat is wen she met my family...Haha.....

After tat..we went to watch movie...
The show movie was Kung Fu Dunk...
Haha...the show was very nice...Its kind of more to comedy show..
After we watch the movie...we settle down under her block... Since I brought some of psp games...
I gave it to her..
After all tat I send her at the elevator n say goodbye
Tats how I celebrate my 6 feb

Ending my 2007(memories)

2008-01-01T03:56:00.000+08:00

On the 31 december 2007.... I end my year going out wif my girl(Fiqah).....
As per normal.. I will always say tat I am late but I turn out to be early to meet her under her block....Firstly we went to Lucky Plaza to play pool.... We tied wif a 3-3 score......
After playing pool.... We went to play arcade at Bugis.....Anyway the games were quite expensive but it is worth it....Firstly we played car racing....There is 2 steering wheel in the so called "car"... Whenever we hit the curb or the cars , we will have to change driver..... We almost reach the end but 2 bad....TIME OUT....
After tat...I played the electric drum... Anyway I am not tat advanced player(Juz trying out something new)She also joined....hehe....It was totally fun....
After tat game...we went to play the car racing game again... Almost gonna win.....
After tat we played Silent Hill.....I became like Leon from Resident Evil 5...
My fav character....
We played the game...den this boys look and play also..... I think we re great as we survive alot difficulties....The boys who played , I think they lose tats y they left....(LOL)
Anyway I manage to became last man standing as Fiqah lose a lot of life point.... She may win in score term but I did save her from being knock out early....(Anyway who cares..)

After all the games.....we went window shopping..... But to bad I can`t sent her hm cause I have to go out wif my Family

27/12/07 Gd and Bad day 4 me...

2007-12-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

27/12/07....i dunno today whether it is a good day or bad day 4 me..... The good thing is, my Amigos friends and I went out to Sentosa for an outing.... I even meet my old colleague...
The Bad thing... I forget abt the outing tat I have promise her 4 2morrow on the 28/12/07...
I wish I can follow her,but I wen out today,so my mum won`t let me go out the next day....
I really feel regret and sorry.... Surely no one will knw how I felt.... Wen I really say sorry.... I really mean it.... Eventhough she said she forgive me...I felt the unsincere in her forgive....
I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hope she will forgive me and nt make me feel much worse.....
But after sometime...she enlighten me a bit....
Tis is the worse mistake tat I had ever done 2 her..... I am sorry my dear...
i didn`t mean to hurt u...

24 Dec 07....Our 1 month anniversary

2007-12-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Eventhought 2day is 27/12/07.....I still wanna write as I am lazy to write 4 the past few days....
We went out to Esplanade to celebrate our 1 month anniversary....At first we were 2 meet at her block....But I was late and she was halfway 2 the mrt station 2 meet me there....In the train I do sms her tat I will be reaching her block in a few minutes.... Eventually she did nt receive my sms due to the reception... I was lucky 2 meet her halfway....If nt she will be waiting 4 me at the station and I will be waiting 4 her at her block.....
After meeting her, we went to Cityhall and window shopping. We teased each other...
It was great..Hehe...After window shopping, we went to the top of Esplanade and watch the beautiful view of the sea..... Wat attract us is the wishing ball... There are alot of wishing ball floating at the mouth of Singapore River.... It had a nice formation...
After standing there 4 a few minute... We sat down and relax....As we relax she fell asleep on my shoulder...It was romantic....hehe....
After the Esplanade....we went to Tiong Bharu Plaza...
At TBP....we took pic using the machine...
After the pic... I send her home....
Tats how we celebrate our 1 month anniversary

24/11/2007( Special day 4 me n some of them)

2007-12-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

Wat so special abt 24/11 .......? Its the day wen I ask a girl to be my girlfriend..... Her name is Frabbit...hehehe......JuZ joking...Her name is Fiqah....N

On tat 24/11,we had an outing going to Sentosa....It was Luqman and Chloe birthday..

Give the credit to Hafiz Ratna, Attiyah and the other who made the cake n made the event going..........

It was a great day. We went Sentosa n had lotz of fun.....Swimming and having fun watching Clearence doing crazy stuff....The best part is wen people suspect me tat I hv ask Fiqah 2 be my GF....They suspect because they saw me holding her hand n coincidence we wore a red shirt.

At abt 6 plus....wen Fiqah hv to leave... Everyone pester me to send her home....So I did...

It was at the bus stop of the Habour Front where I ask 4 her heart....

Wif my romantic voice...I ask her... :Would u like if I were 2 be ur BF....(hehehe juZ joking... I did nt have romantic voice but I said those word 2 her)

To tell the truth...I planned to ask her on a few weeks b4 24/11/07....But tat tyme she was angry so I wait 4 the right tyme to go 4 it.

I also planned tat I want to tell her at the Sentosa but instead I felt shy if my friends would listen....

Anyway tats all I wanted 2 say.....

I hope she will be my only one....

My songs

2007-12-14T09:17:00.001+08:00

Breaking Fast with the Amigos / Wat is Love?

2007-10-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Today on the 11/10/07.... We break fast at Geylang... It was after the drama when we met up with one another...After eating.... We were talking abt our social life... To tell the truth I am jealous with everyone as mostly each and everyone had someone who love them or state wif them.. 4 me I am juz lonely....Wen they said abt their love one... I juz couldn`t say anthing as I do not have Gf...Sometimes I ask myself... Is there any Love 4 me....? Why do my friends got the girl they want.....!!!!And me, whenever I like the girl.... somebody will cut in my way or she will reject me... Sometimes I felt tat is Love reali a good thing or a bad thing? I dunno... Maybe I am not meant 4 Love or maybe I am juz been sway... Its been 3 years I am single... It doesn`t include my Primary.... the First and the last girl I state last 4 only 2 years.... Sometime I wish I can be like Beauty and The Beast.... It is when the beast became the handsome prince... Anyway I feel down if people were to say abt love... Sometimes I gave up....

Abt me

2007-10-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

Who Am I.... I am juz a bloody guy who try to act tough but not damn strong....
I do make people happy but sometimes I don`t understand y I fill myself being like a fool...
Is it maybe I am a fool or wat.. People alway thing I am a happy go lucky type of guy...
Eventually I tried but only god knows how my feeling....
On the Outside I am happy but in the Inside.... I am hurt and suffering like a drop of acid dripping one by one , eating away my skin....U may say tat I know wat u feel, but to tell the truth u don`t....The suffering is so unbeareble tat I have to take it no matter wat...
Sometimes I wish I can cry or juz beat up the whole lot of u...
Nobody know my past except afew...
I almost kill somebody by throwing him down the 3 floor... Anyway lucky my patience is very thick... if not the person would nt be here.. or I would not be here...
I may look innocent at times... but do not tink calm water do not have alligators...
Anyway i know there is alimit 2 everything... So pls don`t push ur luck or I will get mad... A few know abt my behaviour.... If I keep quiet PLS do not approach me... U may not know wat could happen 2 u...Anyway is there reali love?

Me doing Capieora ???

2007-09-01T09:01:00.001+08:00

Am I going nuts...hahaahhaa...

Nah itz true tat I made diZ move..I Though of making other move but it end up like diZ..

Anyway the background make it spoilt bahh....

TiZ event happen when we went out 2gether at East Coast...

The Six crazy campers

2007-09-01T08:49:00.000+08:00

The first campers...

1)Holding the rugby ball.. He is MR Fierce

2)Mr Handsome

3)Mr Cool

4)Mr Shocko

5)Mr Slackers

6)The last one & only Mr Camera.

Without Mr Camera..we can't perform our video... Currently I did not have the video..It was kinda great..We make crazy videos 2gether. Mostly everybody saw us at East Coast..

19 August.. Anna, King and I

2007-08-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

Today.. on 19 august 2007 was a great event... Our drama group had a chance to watch King & I..
1.15pm:
We were supposed to meet each other at 1 but eventually everybody was late..

2.00pm

We went into the theather to get io four seats.

2...plus to 5 plus... :

The show start & end...

6 pluZ :

We went 4 our meal...

Abt the show:

I may say it is very interesting... But eventually the King speaks too fast tat we could not hear wat the King was talking abt.. There is a lot of song... Other den tat.. Everything is very great.. Especially the special effects... Overall it is great..
I hope I can see another drama again... Anyway sorie no pics.

18 August Iz Giant Bday...

2007-08-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

It was kind of great and a memorable one for Iz(I hope so)... Eventually I was the spoiler as I was not feeling very well.. In the afternoon...Around 2.45, IZ Giant & I met Aslam who was playing monopoly at Takashimaya.. It was a competition held by SilkAir. It is very interesting tat monopoly can be made into competition.

After meeting with the othrs we went window shopping. Anyway IZ is glad because "SA" called him... After sometime, we went to Marina Bay to watch the fireworks. Sunddenly my head was struck with headache & I felt like vomitting... Maybe it is due to the tiredness and eat wrong type of food..

In the morning.. I ate Friend Rice.. The Fried Rice was so spicy tat I had to drink alot of water..

Maybe tis cause me to have headache.. Because of me... everybody was so worried tat I would faint.. Eventually I did not faint... Thanks to Allah tat nothing happens to me.

We continued watching the fireworks... At bout 10 pluZ, we sat near the Singapore River to eat together..It is quite a memorable for me..Anyway I would like to APOLOGISE 4 my behaviour 4 the day... Seriously SORRY...

My tiredness

2007-08-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a few day I've been pushing myself 2 the limit.

This past few day I've not relax due to alot of events..

On the 8 august.. I had the national day event where we had 2 stand under the hot sun for a few minutes.. Then in the afternoon I had to go for rugby training.. Very tiring....!!!!

On the national day itself..My friends and I played Touch Rugby at Suntec City..It was very fun and yet tiring.. Tat night, we went to Padang 4 the firework display..It was very beautiful and it did left me memories..We went home at about 12 going to 1 am..

The nxt following day,I had to wake up at 8 bcause my grandfather who was in the hospital called me to visit him.. After visit him, I had to go 4 my drama club.. At there I had to become like a chair so tat my friend could sit on me..The weight is pulling me down and I had to stand the pressure.

The nxt following day..I had to work... I came home at about 11 going to 12 am..It is quite ok as

I can take it..

On 11 august.. I had to go to work at Singapore Expo.. It starts at about 7 am until 6 pm.. I am very very tired as I had 2 stay under the hot sun..