January 2018 is really coming fast. It feels like yesterday it was 2017 and here i am still feeling despair and i cant find/stand on my ground. 2017 memories still hunt me with each stab going deeper then the previous. I dont know. I wish i have the answer to every of my problem. I did manage to make a stand but it seems like my base was just a pile of shit and i crumble easily. I did dug my own grave but i cant seem to find my way out of it. My family did save me, pull me from the hole but i cant find common ground. There are alot of hatred, love and things in my mind. I still cant seem to put it to any words to let off what i am feeling.
