Well...Its been some time I have not type anything in this blog... As you all knw... when I blog, most of post is kinda emo. Sometimes I also got no idea why i am so emo. Firstly..I have quit Starbuck... Well...kinda tiring for me cause of the travel. Secondly, join Sakura International Buffet..( well sooner or later going to quit soon due to management ) Thirdly, I have finish my FYP which make me stress alot n make me gain alot if weight. Lastly, Got a new GF... Wanna knw more...visit my facebook...haha
Well tat is the major things tat happen in my life. Well lets start off wif January.
January:
Having a Grease Musical in my school. Well I am nt the actor of backup actors... I am the crew.. If I didn`t quit the Grease Musical, I would have been the actor. So its ok. Well life have to move on... So being a crew is nt as bad as I thought. I met my GF there...hehe... Well.. alot of things happen...Some of the props missing, den some people almost faint, some had leg pain....alot of stuff happen...well tat is behind the scene of Grease the Musical.
I became the DJ for the Special Event at Dover ITE Clubhouse. Well it was my first tyme I became the DJ for a event. Even though I use the machine b4...but still nervous if i were to play the wrong tune or anthing... Well, lucky I manage to pull it off.
Been bz working on my FYP... Sometymes sleep late for tat...Well I gain weight cause wen I am doing my FYP, my stomach tend to get hungry...so I will eat late supper. Tat cause me to gain weight... Well need to work out more....Hopefully
February:
Well I can`t remember much on February....Maybe nothing special happen or wat....Seriously can`t tink of any except for our anniversary which we did nt go out... I work n she wen out wif her family....FULLSTOP DON`T WANT TO ELEBORATE MOREEE....
March:
Well recently.. I have been getting too fierce, aggitated easily n more emo. I dunno y I became like tat..Well been having alot of probs... My FYP project tat I have been doing all tis month juz disappear juz like tat...wat I mean is the data corrupt. To top up my stress, it happen right b4 the date of the submission... Well...I redo my FYP like almost going to 2 days..Well I didn`t sleep doing tat project, den the nxt day after school, I have to work. Well the most Idiotic thing is tat, I n my friend is the onli person looking after the second level... 2 person n the place is full house. I have to do three things, I have to be buffetline, Lift 2 and runner. I was like sweating like hell eventhought dere re air conditioner... My friend have to clear all the plates tat the customer dun`t want.... Well my manager help once a while onli...Seriously tiring... The Next day, I have to go Science Centre for a event held by Sakura... N tis is more crazy...more bigger crowd..lucky there re alot of staff working...wellIts a mixture of North, South, East, West Sakura... Well make a lot of friends. The next day have to send stuff here n dere... den end up going hm at 1 plus going to 2..Den the worst thing, the nxt day I have to go to school...wat a crazy month..
Abt my past nick in msn: Well, tat tyme we have a talk. So we went in like normal...Well I was angry wif tis chinese guy because he juz sat at the sit where i put my bag on the table(For those didn`t nt understand.. wat I mean is tat i put my bag at the table which is attach wif the chair, den tis chinese guy juz pop out of no where n juz sit n said the sit is book... I was like angry cause he didn`t even said excuse me or anything...)Hey where is ur respect for others...Well, My classmate was like saying rileks to me...asking me to chill n so on... well, as a reader..how do u feel if u re in my shoe... Confirm u will do the same thing as....stare at the guy n make him feel paisey... n will say out loud, no respect for others.. Well... I dunno, anything can happen wen ur angry. Well we escape frm the talk after we felt bored listening to the talk. We all went to cafe 1 to eat.. Before proceed to cafe 1, we met Ratna. While I on the way to the sitting place, I met Hafiz Hussain.... After eating n all..I went home wif Ratna. Well we took bus 24 to Tanah Merah.. Well Ratna told me tat someone said something like, NANTI ANAK RAJA TK ADA TEMPAT DUDUK..Something like tat, well I can`t really remember wat she say cause its been few weeks already. Well wats wif tat...!!!!! HEll, I even notice tat after they eat, they went to sit at the other table....N WTF is tat... Now who is showing attitude, call tat friends..FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!!! To tell the truth, I am so emo cause I really felt tat I am juz an extra to you all... Juz a tool for all wen u need help....Well I don`t mind if they didn`t invite me went they went out... Nw the ans is really clear.... I AM JUZ A EXTRA TO MY CLASSMATES...Tats y I currently tag along more to my Chinese friends rather den malay friends...Seriously I can say tis, I am ashamed of my own race sometimes..nt tat I am trying to be racist or wat. Not only me who said it, some of my friends also said it... Well some may nt like my post....well, i can juz say tis....FUCK OFF IF U DON`T LIKE..TIS IS MY POST, I CAN SAY WATEVER I LIKE... MY MOUTH MY PROB.. I AM LETTING OUT WAT I AM FEELING TIS PAST FEW YEAR OF MY LIFE IN ITE SIMEI... SO FOR THOSE WHO TERASA...I AM SORRY CAUSE I CAN`T DO ANYTHING. Well nw u knw y I change alot... tats the prob... It feels kinda better wen I let it all out... I FELT LEFT OUT EVERYTYME WEN WE RE ALL TOGETHER....I even felt like quiting school tat tyme, somemore due to the exam which tat I didn`t attend... Well as for some of them... Hey, I AM NT UR DOG OR MAID TO LISTEN TO WAT U ALL WANT... I HAVE MY OWN FEELINGS TOO, I HAVE MY OWN DESIRE TOO...WELL WEN I GO ALONE, U ALL SAID I AM EMO... HEY I AM NT BEING EMO, I HAVE BRAINS TO THINK. WELL U ALL SAID U WILL HEAR TO OPINIONS, BUT WELL ,DO U??? EXAMPLE : OTHERS WANT TO EAT AT CAFE 2, BUT YET WE HAVE TO FOLLOW U ALL TO EAT AT CAFE 1... IS TAT WAT U ALL CALLED TRUE FRIENDS, I DUNNO, TO SOME MAYBE. Well I am nt trying to bring bad names to u all....but try to think, try to remember u have done so far...do u try to understand my feeling as a friend... THINK, LOOK AT THE MIRROR, DEN ASK URSELF.... Well maybe u all gonna hate me more, I dunno... I am fine wif it...I don`t even feel welcome wen being wif u all.
Wat I knw, tis 18 march....I want to enjoy my day wif my ex greenridgean... Well can`t wait to meet u guys n girls(Greenridgean)... Hope we all going to have a great day... Well the post abt my classmate, nt all of them re being responsible..Some of them only..n u knw who am I referring to..Well u may nt want to admit it, god knw better.. So I am nt forcing u to admit or anything, juz hope tat u all will be able to sedar n nt do it on ur future friends....
Ok....I let out all my feelings...so its great... well I have told u in my first or sec post.. Don`t judge a book by its cover, I am nt the person tat u all see as friendly or too patience... I can be patience n friendly, but tat also depend of how u treat me... I can go extra miles for a true friend..but don`t ever make me hate u...tats all..
Before i forget....I was feeling aggitated tis past few week.. I am sorry if I were to scold anyone or anything while I am online or live....Especially my GF.....I am sorry dear... Didn`t mean to say those words... hope we can learn frm our mistake...
Well gtg.. Hopefully I will post more...
ShadowZ signing out
2:09 AM
